The change in my mood has been remarkable since I found out that I would be moving forward with the hysterectomy. For people who are chronically ill, the difference between getting good treatment and not is HUGE.
Being chronically in pain or ill is depressing enough. When you compound it with feeling frustrated that your medical providers aren’t listening or don’t seem to be working toward a solution to the problem it becomes almost unbearable. At that point it’s like there’s no end in sight. The thought of living that way FOREVER is pretty heartbreaking.
I saw the ENT this week as well. He reviewed my CT scan with me and sure enough, my septum is deviated. He said that with surgery I will be able to breath better and suffer fewer sinus infections. Since I’m trying to do a half-marathon (that idea seems crazier and crazier to me now as I cut into my training me), I need to be able to BREATHE while I walk quickly/jog. So, we’re moving forward. My tentative surgery date is November 5. That’s probably too close to the hysterectomy, so we’ll likely be pushing it out a week or so.
I am so thrilled to be moving forward on these two things. Finally not having to worry about endless bleeding and heavy bleeding is such a weight off my shoulders. It’s seriously felt like there was an elephant trying to balance on my head or shoulders. It’ll take a bit after the septoplasty, but to be able to breathe well at night should reduce some of my fatigue during the day and give me the energy I’ll need to train and finish the half.
The other thing I’m excited about is that my shrink gave me a prescription for ADHD medication. I tested “average” on the cognitive skills assessment, which would normally mean no drugs for me. However, given my symptoms she thought I could try it for a month and see if it helps. I won’t be starting until after the hysterectomy though. It’s probably a good time to start since I won’t be doing too too much physically and will have be largely focusing on mental tasks.
These last couple months have been great in terms of moving forward in my health. I hope this trend continues into the foreseeable future! I’m not sure what else I can control at this point, but who knows.