A Food Challenge

Mr. Lyndsy left yesterday. After 40 fun days in the US he’s back in the sandbox. And I’m here. Without him.

However, he made our separation interesting. He told me that while we’re apart, I should work on eating better. I’ve got the working out thing down, but the next part is to change my food habits. This means eating fresher foods, avoiding processed foods, things high in sugar, and not too many carbs (especially the simple ones).

I know he’s right about this. That doesn’t mean I want to do it. Because you know, M&Ms, cupcakes, soda.

However, to not focus on us being apart and how much I absolutely LOATHE it, I decided it would be fun to see his reaction after I’d been at the gym for a month without him seeing me every day. It’s hard to see changes when you’re around someone every day, but a month? That can be quite a long time when you’re putting in the work like every day.

Eating better just ups the chances that the changes will be that much more dramatic. Which makes it exciting. Of course, I am NOT a patient person so when I hop on the scale tomorrow I’m going to pissed that I haven’t lost 10 pounds after just one day of healthy eating.

Yes, I know that’s irrational. But you should know that about me. I still believe unicorns.

Anyway, here’s to healthy eating for like 32 days. I’m looking at it sort of one day at a time. Because right now I’m hungry and all I can think about is candy.


I mean, I’m thinking about pineapple. Yeah, pineapple.

*I picked this picture because it made no sense. A pineapple just sunbathing on someone’s lawn??*


Or how about some personal responsibility?

Was scrolling through my Facebook feed when I saw this:

Dear restaurants of Doha???,

Please stop us serving free bread before the meal. It’s delicious and very generous of you. But hard to resist and impossible to stick to a no-bread lifestyle for damsels in distress. Just to let you know they don’t do this in many other countries. Thank you for understanding.

Best regards,
A loyal customer

Saying no isn’t always easy. I’m fat. I get it. While some of my weight may be attributable to health issues, some of it is simply because I do not say no when certain foods are put in my face – Peanut Butter M&Ms are a good example. I also love bread.

However, if I don’t want to eat something, I *can* say no. I can ask them not to bring it. When a server goes to put it on the table, I can refuse it. I do it all the time with the sauces they serve at PF Chang’s. It’s not fucking rocket science. If you can say no before it ever gets to the table, life gets a lot easier.

Learning to say “no” has some great benefits. Instead of being a victim to what may be come at us, we take control over it. We take control over what goes into our bodies. We take control over our personal space. We take control over our time.

I absolutely abhor the lack of personal responsibility we seem to be demonstrating these days. It is not up to any restaurant to figure out what we should or shouldn’t eat. It’s not up to any business to sell products that are healthy for us. They’re simply meeting a demand. That’s their business. It is up to US to say that we don’t want something. We have the power when we refuse to buy their products.

If you don’t want bread, JUST FUCKING SAY NO.


30-Day Project: May Wrap-Up/June Project

30-day Project

It’s not quite the end of May yet, and I will certainly finish out what I decided to, but I figure not much will change between now and then.

I started out the month tracking in the Weight Watchers app, but that got really stressful. I switched to just writing down what I eat in a notebook. It still serves the purpose of making me aware of what I’m eating, which is what I was hoping for. I trailed off in my water consumption toward the end of the month, and I can definitely feel the changes in my body so I am definitely going to go back to drinking more water.

Overall, I think this was pretty successful.

For June… I’m going to be pretty laid up most of the month, so it can’t be anything that requires physical activity. I’ve been meaning to blog more and get into a better habit of writing, so that’s my June 30-Day Project – a little something in the blog every day. It may not last like that after June, but I think it should help me get into a better routine with it. It’s also good because I want to document the surgery and my recovery.

Thanks for reading 🙂

Fed Up – Sugar is NOT our friend

30-day Project

Since this month is the month where I committed to tracking everything I eat and water consumption, I’ve been chatting a lot with a friend who is also using Weight Watchers. He suggested that I watch the movie Fed Up. He told me it was about food, specifically sugar, and how bad it is for us.

That’s not exactly news to me, particularly as someone with Type 2 diabetes. However, if he was willing to make the recommendation, I figured I’d give it a go.


It’s a really well put-together documentary about the obesity epidemic facing America (the stats are absolutely horrifying – they expect 1/3 Americans to be overweight or obese by 2050, the 40,000+ YOUTH with Type 2 diabetes) and the role that sugar plays in causing the problem.

One of the main points is that losing weight isn’t as simple as people try to make it. It’s more than calories in, calories out. The “energy balance” is actually bullshit. Not all calories are created equal.

It rails pretty hard on the government for being too much of a sack of testicles to do anything to regulate it and on the food industry for being too soulless to stop marketing crap food to kids, its bullshit marketing, and unwillingness to make actual changes to their products.

Sugar is in pretty much everything and they’re super clever about naming it. Chances are good if you can’t figure out how to say it, it’s sugar.

Apparently, the recommended amount of added sugar intake is like 6-9 teaspoons, but Americans consume something like 10 times that during the course of a regular day. Every now and then it wouldn’t matter so much. But on a daily basis over the course of years, you’re in trouble.

I was also fascinated by TOFI – Thin Outside, Fat Inside. They scanned a family’s kids. Of the four kids, only one appeared overweight. However, when they scanned them, they discovered that in three of the four kids, the belly fat percentage was twice the recommended amount. Yikes.

That’s pretty damn horrifying if you think about. People fat shame all the time, but thin people aren’t always as healthy as they think they are. I’d seen some articles on the idea that fat people may not be as unhealthy as previously thought, and that thin people may not be as healthy as they think they are. Just because you don’t gain weight on the outside doesn’t mean you don’t have fat living around your organs. And that’s what kills us.

It’s about an hour and a half, but it’s worth the watch. I will definitely be thinking even harder about what I’m putting into my body and looking for some ways to make some of my favorite snacks in a healthier way.

An Order of Resentment with a Side of Frustration, Please

30-day Project

Right from day 1 I’ve been feeling like I hate tracking my food. HATE it. Because I resent that I can’t eat whatever I want without looking like a hippo. I get frustrated trying to continuously have food I like to eat that without getting bored.

When I track with Weight Watchers I feel like I HAVE to eat a certain way – basically all fresh veggies with chicken and shrimp almost exclusively. I feel like the Plan Manager is judging me for my choices and that makes me want to tell it to go fuck itself. The app even tells me that the tracker is much happier when I tell it about my food. Creepy much?

For those who have never used Weight Watchers, here’s how it works. You record what you eat into the Plan Manager. It’s pretty helpful and already includes a lot of foods, including restaurant foods. The Plan Manager then converts the nutritional information into a point value. Based on your gender, weight, and goals, you have a certain number of points you can eat each day and you get 49 extra points to use over the course of the week. You weigh in once per week. Your daily point number is adjusted based on your weight.

They changed the system a while ago when they finally acknowledged that eating an apple isn’t the same as eating as 100 calorie snack pack, even though they both have the same calories. Now most fruits and veggies don’t cost you any points and as long as you don’t go apeshit on them, you’ll still lose weight.

The whole point of Weight Watchers isn’t to force you into a particular way of eating. It’s really about helping you make choices about what you’re eating so you can see, quickly and easily, the cost of the food you do eat. They give you extra points so you can indulge from time to time. It’s an algorithm to make eating in moderation easier.

I finally realized this weekend that I was missing the point. This isn’t a race to some finish. It’s more about being able to see the big picture of the food I eat and figuring out how to make things balance. Sure, I can have a burger and fries for lunch, but I probably need to have a salad for dinner that night and I shouldn’t really have that burger and fries too many times during the week.

 I also decided that for a week or so I’d eat the way I always do to see what it looks like and get a feel for why I was turning into a blimp.

So yesterday I indulged a gross amount at the mall. The fact that I felt like crap for overeating and eating stuff that’s not great for me probably should have been enough of an indicator that it wasn’t a great way to eat. But seeing how I used up all my daily points and then almost all of my weekly points really hammered it home. (Fortunately it was the end of the week so I get all my weekly points back today!)

Anyway, I’m a lot calmer now. No need to tell website where it can take itself.