When to make a change

Sometimes I like to torture myself by thinking about what I’d be doing with myself if I felt well enough to work like a normal person. If I could be doing anything, what would I do?

I do direct sales. I picked what I did because I like the products. However, I think I’m a shitty salesperson. I hate feeling like I’m pressuring anyone into anything.

What I’m thinking about now is whether to give it up. I’m not really making money at it, but that’s probably because I’m not really working them. I’m not looking for new customers for the products. You can only sell to your warm market for so long.

I don’t know if it’s that I don’t know how to do it or because I’m not committed to the sales part of it. For my main company, I love the product. I live in it. But for some reason it’s not translating into sales well.

Do I give it up? I’ll have to hustle to even be able to do that, but should I move on that course? Did I just put myself in a weird position because I’m not around the product all the time? It’s hard when I can’t go to vendor events because I’m just not in the country.

Ugh. Being an adult is such a crock of shit sometimes.

It’s also never a good idea for me to make decisions when I’m not feeling particularly well. I just want to give up EVERYTHING when that happens.

Part of the issue is that I’m focusing on getting my health in line right now. That is, without question, my number one priority. Without my health being as good as possible I’m just kind of miserable. Feeling like that makes doing anything fun really hard. Being tired makes doing things hard.

I guess I shouldn’t make any decisions until I’ve exhausted (see what I did there), every possibility for making myself feel better. It’s like not going grocery shopping when you’re hungry.

Thanks, friends, for listening while I ramble.

People are exhausting

I’m a direct seller with a few companies. One of the companies I’m with just announced some major changes.

Rather than be calm and rational and THINK THROUGH things, people are freaking out on the COMPANY’S GROUP PAGE. I even saw a comment from someone who hadn’t watched the company’s announcement, but instead just ran with what she’d heard other people saying.

The people complaining are people who aren’t making many sales each month. This means they aren’t actually making that much income either. But they’re worried that the company is taking it away. They say they’re working hard.

Here’s the thing. Working hard doesn’t always mean you’re working the right way. If you’re doing the same thing over and over you’re probably getting the same results. When something isn’t working you have to step back and re-evaluate your plan. Try something new. Jump out of your comfort zone. That’s how changes happen. That’s where you find success.

But really, what the ever-loving fuck is wrong with people? If this is how they’re responding on this issue, I’m guessing this is how they respond to other things as well. Rather than actually taking the time process information, they’re letting knee-jerk reactions carry them forward, yelling about it, and getting inflamed by the other people who didn’t bother thinking things through either.

I’m guessing that’s how we got our asshole president.

And of course, because people freaked out, the company changed the requirements to make it easier. Now all those people who didn’t bother thinking shit through have been rewarded for their idiocy.

This is why we can’t have nice things.

It’s fucking irritating and I’m already in a foul mood.

BLARGH.