Movie Review: Inside Out (2015)

Movie Review

(Clicking the star will take you to the trailer)

I know I’m super late to this party. However, in this part of the world Ramadan was happening when the movie first came out. During Ramadan, no new movies start playing. Then I was in Brazil for a month and the movie was only offered dubbed in Portuguese. My Portuguese is just not that strong. Fortunately it was still playing here when I got back to the sandbox.

Because everyone saw it before I did I knew I would cry. And  did. Multiple times. The main characters of the movie are the emotions of an 11-year old girl named Riley who is uprooted from her home in Minnesota and planted in San Francisco. The emotions are Joy (Amy Poehler), Sadness (Phyllis Smith), Fear (Bill Hader), Anger (Lewis Black), and Disgust (Mindy Kaling). I don’t think they could have picked better voices for these emotions.

Like any Disney * Pixar movie, there is a lot thrown in just for the adults. I was the only person in the theater laughing a few times, but since I don’t embarrass I’m okay with that. At one point Sadness breaks down entirely and starts crying. Joy is concerned about the effect Sadness is having on Riley so she tries to make her stop. Sadness replies, “Crying helps me slow down and obsess over the weight of life’s problems.” It makes you laugh because if you don’t you’ll cry.

The movie really forces the adults who watch it to think back about their own lives some. I wondered a lot where my imaginary friends went or if I even had them in the first place since I can’t recall them at all. It made me wish I spent more time in my imagination and in a place where more things seem possible and not like I’m trapped on a set path.

I remember reading that there wasn’t really a villain in the movie and it turned out to be true. Our emotions are a core part of us and what the movie ultimately shows is that while we may not want them around, Sadness, Anger, Fear, and Disgust play complex roles in our lives. They weave together to create lives that are rich and full of meaning.

Like with Toy Story 3, I am sure that I will cry every time I watch it. But it’s a joyful sadness.

If you haven’t already seen it, rent it when it comes out. It’s a really good reminder that we can get our emotions to work for us instead of allowing them to work against us.


30-Day Project: August Wrap-up/September Plan

30-day Project

I won’t waste words on August – it’s been almost a complete failure. Some of it was the traveling, some of it was illness. Regardless of the reason, I failed. I’m upset with myself because journeying is something I do need to do every day for my health and well-being. Even though I won’t be making it a goal for September, I do intend to be better going forward. I think I need to figure out a new mechanism for accountability. Onto September!

September, in my head, was going to be about cooking and baking and sharing pictures. The goal was to try to eat a little better by doing more cooking, but i also realized that there is no way I was going to cook every day of September.

So then it turned into No Soda September. Given that there are really no health benefits to drinking soda and really only downsides, it’s a great goal. I’d stopped drinking it much, but once I was cooped up in bed after surgery, I started up again.

Then today I had an episode with frozen yogurt. I am lactose-intolerant and I have known this for years. Once I figured it out, I switched to lactose-free milk and things were fine. Then yogurt became an enemy. Then eating cheese on its own. Today, fro yo betrayed me.

To avoid destroying any more of my underwear, I need to make some changes. Really, it’s about more than my underwear. I have not been respecting my body. It’s been sending me signals of “Please don’t do that to me anymore” and I’ve ignored them. My body deserves better than that. I deserve better than that. In some ways, it’s the same as getting out of an abusive relationship.

That thought hadn’t occurred to me until right now, but now that I’m thinking about it, that makes a lot of sense. If another person were doing to me what I’m doing to my body, I would kick them out of my life. So that’s what I have to do.

Because I get overwhelmed with thinking about doing much of anything for long stretches of time (except being married to Mr. Lyndsy), I’m thinking about this as a 30-Day Project. For the month of September I will not be drinking any soda, I will not be eating any fast food, I will minimize my dairy intake, I will consume more water, I will cut back on my juice consumption, I will eat at least one fruit and one vegetable per day (actual fruits and veg, not shit like NutriGrain bars with fruit in them).

Mr. Lyndsy has graciously agreed to join in for parts of this. His addiction isn’t soda, but coffee. It would be one thing if he drank it black but he says that tastes disgusting. Instead he drinks about an eighth of a cup of coffee, the remainder is milk and sugar. He doesn’t tend to eat fast food too often, but he’s going to join me in avoiding it too. I’m pretty sure I’m going to need the support so I am so thankful he’s doing it with me.

I have avoided doing this for a long time, but I’m not entirely sure why. When I was initially diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes, I changed my diet quite a bit. But, because I was on meds and they really controlled my sugar I slid back into my old eating patterns. But now I’m getting pissed about the drug industry and promoting pills as the end all be all. Not to mention that I just don’t feel all that well. I’m tired most of the time. I still have brain fog. I have a feeling a big diet change may help. The problem is that I’m going to have to go beyond the 30 days to really feel the effects. I’m hoping that I’ll be feeling some of the benefits within the 30 days so continuing on isn’t an issue.

I didn’t mention candy in that list because I do believe that SOME here and there isn’t that big a deal. My body has been helping this along – lately the candy I used to love just hasn’t tasted as good to me. I guess I’m still attached to how much I used to enjoy it, since I’ve still been eating it. Though I do wonder why after I do it.

As the month goes on, if I figure out that something is bothering my stomach still, I’m going to eliminate it. I’m tired of feeling like crap.

This won’t be easy for me. But, I’ve gotten myself out of an abusive relationship before. I can do it again, though I’ve upped the difficulty level a bit.

(Last?) Foot/Leg Update


I went back to the doctor this morning for my boot follow-up. NO MORE BOOT!!! The one I got before I left broke while we were in Brazil so Mr. Lyndsy had to go out and find one for me. The one he picked up is much less cumbersome than the one we got here, but holy crap, they’re all annoying. And man, they develop one hell of an odor.

In an interesting twist, the doctor doesn’t want me to do physical therapy. He’s concerned that they’ll pull my foot down too far and ruin all the work he did. I’m not really supposed to do any sports either. Not really an issue. I do want to go back to the gym, but I don’t see how this will be an issue for that.

His big point is that what I wanted is to be able to pick up my foot and I can. I’m curious to see how my foot will feel walking in a normal shoe rather than the boot. I know I need to get some shoes that have more arch support in them. Neither of the boots had any and I could feel a lot of pain in the arch.

My ankle gets a little sore when I walk for a distance so I try to break up any walking I do. I’m working on being able to bend my toes without picking up my foot. Not sure how thats’ going to go.

This journey isn’t at a complete end yet, but the worst of it should be over!

Celebrating one of my longest relationships!

I have a friend. We’ll call him… J. Anyway, J and I are celebrating 16 years of friendship this week. I have some friends I’ve stayed in contact with for at least that long, but J and I have a pretty tight friendship. Like, he knows things about my bajingo. He gets updates when my uterus hurts. I know, lucky him.

We used to talk on the phone for hours each week. I’d walk around my neighborhood and we’d shoot the shit. He road tripped with me when I went to my first law school. He was one of the first people I told about moving to Seattle. He put me up while I was taking the bar exam in Florida and helped keep me calm. We’ve spent all night at Disney together in the heat and with crazy people. Even when he thinks I’m doing something batshit insane (getting married to a guy I’d known for 9 months, for example), he just smiles and supports me.

He encourages my craziness and is inappropriate right along with me. We created an account on adultfriendfinder just to see what it was. I was surprised his internet wasn’t cut off when we were investigating a particular group of people who do sick shit. One of my first conversations with him was about penis size. When he came home from class in college I was usually asleep in his bed and he didn’t kick me out. He figured out how to change clothes after a shower without kicking me out. He’s tolerated years of me talking about how hot he is and grabbing his ass.

My life is better for having him in it and I know that whatever life throws at me or at him we’ll always be there for each other.

J – our relationship is now driving age. I can’t wait ’til it can drink! Thanks for all the good times we’ve had and the ones yet to come. Love you!

Cut the Bullshit

I just saw a post on Facebook that was a picture of a cop with a kid and the statement was something to the effect of thanking police and everyone who puts their lives on the line every day, and letting them know they still have someone out there supporting them.

I am sick of seeing shit that’s polarizing like that. The reality is that you can support the police AND be pissed when the police abuse the power entrusted to them. Police have a LOT of discretion in their jobs – whether they approach someone is probably the biggest one. Without an approach we don’t tend to end up with devastating results – Sandra Bland, Michael Brown, etc.

Think about it. A cop can decide whether to pull someone over for a broken taillight. For the failure to stop at an intersection. They make those decisions and others like it hundreds of times every day. They make the choice about how to approach someone. Obviously their safety is paramount, but the safety of the person they’re stopping matters too.

I’m also tired of people thinking that we can’t care about more than one thing at a time. Cecil the Lion and Black Lives Matter. I can be concerned about both the extinction of wildlife and the extinction of human life.

What people are apparently not seeing is that they’re all related. Someone who doesn’t care about wildlife probably isn’t too concerned with a lot of people on the planet either. When we disrupt the natural world it affects people, not just animals. People who aren’t thinking that far ahead in that regard probably don’t see past themselves either.

I was also recently involved in a discussion about the disruption of Bernie Sanders’ rally in Seattle by Black Lives Matter people (whether it was really BLM, I don’t actually know – not the point). Someone said that racial equality and justice isn’t the only issue and suggested that it shouldn’t even be a top issue. After all, there are things like healthcare, education and the economy to focus on.

That made me laugh. While I sort of appreciate what that person was saying and agree all of those are important, you can’t address racial equality and justice without addressing all three of those in the process. When we correct racial inequality, education, economics, and healthcare HAVE to be part of the discussion. They will be worked on as a part of that process.

Also, I don’t think it’s possible to have a great economy, decent healthcare, and world-class education in the United States while racial inequality is the status quo. It’s logically impossible to do.

It seems to me that people aren’t looking at the forest AND the trees. I suppose that we tend to focus on what matters to us individually since a lot of us are in survival mode.

But perhaps if we thought more of the big picture, we could effect change that takes us out of the need for survival mode and we could go more into thrive mode.

30-Day Project: July Wrap-Up and August Project

30-day Project

It’s that time again! July was mostly a success, especially because I learned something very important. I need to make sure that I have some way to keep myself accountable. I did okay with the haiku – was late a few times. Traveling and preparing to travel sort of threw me off. I wasn’t as awesome about the positivity part of the project. I should have made myself write things down. Then I would have had spaces in a calendar missing names and that would have made me remember “I need to do this.”

The good thing is that I know what I need to do in August!

I have recently started on a new spiritual path into shamanism. A big part of shamanism is journeying – entering an altered state of consciousness to meet with helping spirits. Because it’s such an integral part, I want to do it every day. Most of the journeys will be 10-15 minutes which I should easily be able to add to my daily routine. The accountability comes in that I will be journaling after each journey while it’s still fresh in my mind and so I can look back and see how things worked out.

I’m really excited about making shamanism a bigger part of my life. It’s a path I should have taken a long time ago. But, better late than never. Particularly with this.

I’ll probably blog more about what shamanism is and how it’s applying in my life. Some of you won’t appreciate the practice, and you should most definitely feel free to skip those posts (obviously).

Here’s to August!