2015 Reading Challenge: Update

2015 Reading Challenge

I meant to update this before now, but I’ve been a slacker about reading. I went through a phase where I didn’t read a book for WEEKS. I have no idea how that happened. However, I’m back reading again. I got pretty behind on my goal of reading 100 books this year, so I’ve been playing catch-up and diving into some series. Of course, those don’t exactly seem to be helping my 2015 Reading Challenge question.

Here’s where that stands:

2015 Reading Challenge

  1. A book with more than 500 pages The Time Traveler’s Wife
  2. A classic romance Jane Eyre 1/13/15
  3. A book that became a movie Gone Girl 1/22/15
  4. A book published this year Bring Me Back 5/4/15
  5. A book with a number in the title Fahrenheit 451
  6. A book written by someone under 30 The Hitchhikers’s Guide to the Galaxy 1/20/15
  7. A book with nonhuman characters
  8. A funny book Twisted Sisters
  9. A book by a female author The New Mrs D 1/26/15
  10. A mystery or thriller A Crime of Passion 5/22/15
  11. A book with a one-word title Dubliners
  12. A book of short stories Olive Kitteridge
  13. A book set in a different country The Kite Runner
  14. A nonfiction book Me Talk Pretty One Day, The God Delusion
  15. A popular author’s first book Carrie
  16. A book from an author you love that you haven’t read yet The Woman Who Stole My Life
  17. A book a friend recommended The Talented Mr. Ripley
  18. A Pulitzer Prize-winning book Beloved
  19. A book based on a true story Eat, Pray, Love 1/14/15
  20. A book at the bottom of your to-read list
  21. A book your mom loves Little Women
  22. A book that scares you My Sister’s Grave 5/2015
  23. A book more than 100 years old Frankenstein
  24. A book based entirely on its cover
  25. A book you were supposed to read in school but didn’t Catch-22
  26. A memoir Infidel
  27. A book you can finish in a day The Quaker Café 1/6/15
  28. A book with antonyms in the title North and South
  29. A book set somewhere you’ve always wanted to visit
  30. A book that came out the year you were born Cathedral
  31. A book with bad reviews
  32. A trilogy Divergent 1/24/15, Insurgent 3/2012, Allegiant 3/2015
  33. A book from your childhood
  34. A book with a love triangle Taking Chances
  35. A book set in the future Ender’s Game 1/27/15
  36. A book set in high school Anna and the French Kiss
  37. A book with a color in the title The Color Purple
  38. A book that made you cry Anne of Green Gables 1/6/15
  39. A book with magic Vale of the Vole
  40. A graphic novel V for Vendetta
  41. A book by an author you’ve never read before A Temporary Ghost
  42. A book you own but have never read Attorney at Large
  43. A book that takes place in your stateMcNally’s Alibi
  44. A book that was originally written in a different language Chronicle of a Death Foretold
  45. A book set during Christmas The Polar Express
  46. A book written by an author with your same initials Final Jeopardy
  47. A play Hamlet
  48. A banned book To Kill a Mockingbird
  49. A book based on or turned into a TV show A Game of Thrones
  50. A book you started but never finished The Inconvenient Corpse

All in all, I could be in a better place, but I have months to get all these read. They are books I would like to read… well, maybe not Game of Thrones so much, but I guess we’ll see.

What are you reading right now?

I review a lot of the books I read. You can check them out on Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/doseoflyndsy

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30-Day Project: May Wrap-Up/June Project

30-day Project

It’s not quite the end of May yet, and I will certainly finish out what I decided to, but I figure not much will change between now and then.

I started out the month tracking in the Weight Watchers app, but that got really stressful. I switched to just writing down what I eat in a notebook. It still serves the purpose of making me aware of what I’m eating, which is what I was hoping for. I trailed off in my water consumption toward the end of the month, and I can definitely feel the changes in my body so I am definitely going to go back to drinking more water.

Overall, I think this was pretty successful.

For June… I’m going to be pretty laid up most of the month, so it can’t be anything that requires physical activity. I’ve been meaning to blog more and get into a better habit of writing, so that’s my June 30-Day Project – a little something in the blog every day. It may not last like that after June, but I think it should help me get into a better routine with it. It’s also good because I want to document the surgery and my recovery.

Thanks for reading 🙂

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Happy Birthday, Mr. Lyndsy!

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How I managed to marry a man who doesn’t like to celebrate his birthday is beyond me. Fortunately he’s fine with me treating mine like an international holiday.

Anyway, he doesn’t want to celebrate the day he graced the world with his presence. But I do.

I met Mr. Lyndsy at a pretty fucked up time in my life. My health was taking a turn for the worse, my job was killing my soul, and I was trying to figure out what the hell I was going to do next. Meeting him, even virtually, made me smile. He told me that whatever health issues I was dealing with, he’d be right there with me. We talked after all my appointments, he strongly encouraged me to go when I was ambivalent, and made me put myself and my health ahead of my job.

He knows when I’m lying to him about how I’m feeling. He’ll stop whatever he’s doing if I look like I need a hug. He doesn’t mind when I cry and get snot all over him.

Things lately have been pretty stressful. Unproductive doctor’s appointments, trying to make sure I’m taken care of after surgery, job stress. Above all, he just wants me to be happy and will do whatever he can to make sure I am happy.

I was reading in bed the other day and he came to lay down with me. He complained about a headache. I put my phone down and we rested together for a while. He passed the hell out and then got back up and continued playing video games. I asked how the headache was and he said it was better, that he just needed a hug from Wife. He always makes me feel good.

He is the anchor of my life and the one person who can always make me smile. For this, he deserves to be celebrated. Happy Birthday, Mr. Lyndsy!

Fed Up – Sugar is NOT our friend

30-day Project

Since this month is the month where I committed to tracking everything I eat and water consumption, I’ve been chatting a lot with a friend who is also using Weight Watchers. He suggested that I watch the movie Fed Up. He told me it was about food, specifically sugar, and how bad it is for us.

That’s not exactly news to me, particularly as someone with Type 2 diabetes. However, if he was willing to make the recommendation, I figured I’d give it a go.

HOLY. FUCKING. SHIT.

It’s a really well put-together documentary about the obesity epidemic facing America (the stats are absolutely horrifying – they expect 1/3 Americans to be overweight or obese by 2050, the 40,000+ YOUTH with Type 2 diabetes) and the role that sugar plays in causing the problem.

One of the main points is that losing weight isn’t as simple as people try to make it. It’s more than calories in, calories out. The “energy balance” is actually bullshit. Not all calories are created equal.

It rails pretty hard on the government for being too much of a sack of testicles to do anything to regulate it and on the food industry for being too soulless to stop marketing crap food to kids, its bullshit marketing, and unwillingness to make actual changes to their products.

Sugar is in pretty much everything and they’re super clever about naming it. Chances are good if you can’t figure out how to say it, it’s sugar.

Apparently, the recommended amount of added sugar intake is like 6-9 teaspoons, but Americans consume something like 10 times that during the course of a regular day. Every now and then it wouldn’t matter so much. But on a daily basis over the course of years, you’re in trouble.

I was also fascinated by TOFI – Thin Outside, Fat Inside. They scanned a family’s kids. Of the four kids, only one appeared overweight. However, when they scanned them, they discovered that in three of the four kids, the belly fat percentage was twice the recommended amount. Yikes.

That’s pretty damn horrifying if you think about. People fat shame all the time, but thin people aren’t always as healthy as they think they are. I’d seen some articles on the idea that fat people may not be as unhealthy as previously thought, and that thin people may not be as healthy as they think they are. Just because you don’t gain weight on the outside doesn’t mean you don’t have fat living around your organs. And that’s what kills us.

It’s about an hour and a half, but it’s worth the watch. I will definitely be thinking even harder about what I’m putting into my body and looking for some ways to make some of my favorite snacks in a healthier way.

Foot/Leg Update – PROGRESS FINALLY

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I went to the doctor last night and there are no words to express my rage and frustration with the doctor. This is the guy who, when I saw him in February, told me he was booked until June and didn’t have his calendar for June or beyond. He recommended a tendon transfer to get me walking without a brace. He also sent me for an EMG/nerve conduction study.

The EMG revealed what I already knew – that my body had done all it could and that I needed to have surgery. THANKS FOR THE NEWS FLASH. The doctor doing the study did say that I should have a nerve transfer because there was still some innervation of the muscle.

Fast forward to last night (which was the earliest appointment I could get after the EMG on April 2nd). All of a sudden he’s telling me that maybe I shouldn’t have a tendon transfer after all. That perhaps I should consider an ankle fusion. I flat out told him no to the ankle fusion. After making me get the EMG, he pretty much disregarded it and said that he couldn’t do the nerve transfer and that I would have to consult with a plastic surgeon. AWESOME USE OF MY TIME AND MONEY.

He called in a colleague to consult. That doctor also told me I should have an ankle fusion and that the results wouldn’t be as good with a tendon transfer. I also told him a fusion was not an option.

The doctor then tells me that the earliest date he has for surgery is SEPTEMBER 6TH. I was like, are you fucking kidding me? He told me that he didn’t want me to rush into surgery, and blah blah blah. Clearly he had no idea what it’s like to walk around in an uncomfortable ass brace all day.

Mr. Lyndsy is sitting in the room with me, almost ready to explode.

Perhaps thinking another colleague would be able to convince me to have an ankle fusion, he referred me to someone else. He called that doctor directly and they agreed that  could be seen the next day (today). I was pissed at having to get up early to again see someone else who wouldn’t know what the fuck was going on, but I hoped the doctor would have a clearer surgery schedule.

So I got my ass up and went in. They dicked us around trying to get me in since I didn’t have an official appoint. But, I am glad we stuck it out.

The new doctor checked my foot’s strength and quickly came up with a plan of action. He said an ankle fusion is a last resort and that because the tendon they normally use for the surgery is lacking strength, he would take two smaller tendons that are strong and use them for the fusion. He expects a fairly good result doing it that way.

Then he asked when I wanted to get this done. I told him as soon as possible. He flips through his calendar and I hear May 25th. WHAT??? Then he takes it back. I’m holding my breath, hoping that it’s something earlier than September.

JUNE 6TH.

Fuck. Yes.

To make sure I get in, he told me to try to get admitted to the hospital two days before. If they can’t take me, I go in the next day. If they can take me on the 4th, he’ll release me home but I’ll still keep the bed. If they take me on the 5th, I do the same thing.

He showed me where the incisions would be. I have four weeks in a plaster cast and then six in a boot while I do physical therapy.

Yeah, me in a cast and on crutches should be a great time.

The only issue with this plan is that Mr. Lyndsy has to go to a course from June 12-21. I think I’ll be fine on my own, but he isn’t comfortable with the idea of leaving me home alone then.

So the question is, who’s going to come babysit me for 10 days???

An Order of Resentment with a Side of Frustration, Please

30-day Project

Right from day 1 I’ve been feeling like I hate tracking my food. HATE it. Because I resent that I can’t eat whatever I want without looking like a hippo. I get frustrated trying to continuously have food I like to eat that without getting bored.

When I track with Weight Watchers I feel like I HAVE to eat a certain way – basically all fresh veggies with chicken and shrimp almost exclusively. I feel like the Plan Manager is judging me for my choices and that makes me want to tell it to go fuck itself. The app even tells me that the tracker is much happier when I tell it about my food. Creepy much?

For those who have never used Weight Watchers, here’s how it works. You record what you eat into the Plan Manager. It’s pretty helpful and already includes a lot of foods, including restaurant foods. The Plan Manager then converts the nutritional information into a point value. Based on your gender, weight, and goals, you have a certain number of points you can eat each day and you get 49 extra points to use over the course of the week. You weigh in once per week. Your daily point number is adjusted based on your weight.

They changed the system a while ago when they finally acknowledged that eating an apple isn’t the same as eating as 100 calorie snack pack, even though they both have the same calories. Now most fruits and veggies don’t cost you any points and as long as you don’t go apeshit on them, you’ll still lose weight.

The whole point of Weight Watchers isn’t to force you into a particular way of eating. It’s really about helping you make choices about what you’re eating so you can see, quickly and easily, the cost of the food you do eat. They give you extra points so you can indulge from time to time. It’s an algorithm to make eating in moderation easier.

I finally realized this weekend that I was missing the point. This isn’t a race to some finish. It’s more about being able to see the big picture of the food I eat and figuring out how to make things balance. Sure, I can have a burger and fries for lunch, but I probably need to have a salad for dinner that night and I shouldn’t really have that burger and fries too many times during the week.

 I also decided that for a week or so I’d eat the way I always do to see what it looks like and get a feel for why I was turning into a blimp.

So yesterday I indulged a gross amount at the mall. The fact that I felt like crap for overeating and eating stuff that’s not great for me probably should have been enough of an indicator that it wasn’t a great way to eat. But seeing how I used up all my daily points and then almost all of my weekly points really hammered it home. (Fortunately it was the end of the week so I get all my weekly points back today!)

Anyway, I’m a lot calmer now. No need to tell website where it can take itself.